love it!

im gaga for lady gaga!

soo i have fell hard in love with lady gaga. i started looking up her stuff on youtube. watching her videos and wow i just love her. i love her music and her crazy style. and most of all she can really sing! like really! im soo excited for her new cd coming out. i will prob actually buy it. you can get a double cd that has her first cd and this one together for like 15 bucks i will prob get that. soo excited.
hi. im a nerd!

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do it!

The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives.

i do feel guilty.

when i grow up i want to be...im not sure. but this is not it. go back to school? maybe. move into a box that doenst charge rent? possbily ( how else would i be able to pay for school??!!?) work 40 hrs a week and go to school? ( great. i dont have a social life now. if i do this will i ever. again?)

and what do i want to be?? heck if i know. i know id like to make close to what i make now ( i could do less if i liked my job more. which heck thats why i think im having a 1/3 life crisis.) i want to be able to plan for things and do them. not hope oh heck i hope i can have this day off. or this night off. or i will know what i work. or will asked nicely to change my schedule. i just want to like my job more i guess.

blahh! i just wish i knew what i need to do. and i would take the steps i needed. i guess im scared.

i wrote an email to my mom telling her my frustrations in my job and the other mgrs i work with. i wish i could be as positve as her.

GM :)
Work, is work. If it were fun, it would be called that. And I know you are supposed to like your job? I like my job but it is still work. There are Buffy Tesios everywhere. People are just people. We need to stay close to the ones who encourage us and distance ourselves from those who do not. I just try to take a positive attitude into it all. That is the only way to be happy, from the inside out. Those two ladies are sad cases. I think people who dis others to make them selves feel better are very unhappy. I want to be happy. That comes from within. We have that happiness, they do not. Anyway, you have good friends and you have your very small family and you have Tess. What more could you ask for? And you are fairly healthy which is very important. Just take care of you and try to be helpful. Some people just hate it when you are nice to them. So I try to be nice and if they are really mean, I try to stay out of their radar. But you know all this. You are mature enough not to waste your time on the really stupid people. I sorta want to just live in a cave but we are supposed to make the world a better place. You would not make it in the cave unless you had wifi :) So, don’t worry, be happy :) And what you do in your spare time is YOUR business. I bet if they confessed how they spend their spare time, we could make fun of them.
Don’t you hate me :) I love you!!! It has been such beautiful weather, I love it.


yes. my mom said dis. and this is one of the only emails that she has sent in the last couple of days that didnt say holler back. really she says that in emails. shes silly and urban hip or something :)


The lyrics to Everybody's Free to Wear Sunscreen, by Mary Schmich:

Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

love.this.video.

exploding dog

i cant remember when i stumbled across explodingdog.com i know it was when i working at IT at OU but thats all i know. i visit this site pretty often. and i love this artist.

im really liking lady gaga. only 534038 years behind everyone else. oh whatever. i dont listen to the radio. ever.

sober and unkissed....

oh. my. god. i love fonts. love them! and dafont! to bad my photoshop cs will expire in like 12 days. i think i can just move a copy from one of my ibooks. i hope.

why dont i sleep like a normal person. possibly because my dreams are soo much better then my real life. waking up is painful and makes sleep not worth it for the way i feel after an amazing dream. worthless. alone. fearful that i will never feel anything that i want to feel. like im missing out. life hurts me sometimes. is there something wrong with me? maybe. am i normal? not in any way im sure.


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