love it! too bad i only know a couple of songs. im not a radio whore.

i got the stuffs...

the amount of crap i have is mind boggling. like really. i mean i know im a pack rat. but really its crazy. like just now ( actually for a while now) ive been planning on doing a blog about my move. i took pictures of my apt a day or two after i decided to move. i wanted proof that i lived alone and could visit said proof when i go possibly crazy in minco oklahoma. so just now i was like camera cord where are you??!!!?? and i had to plug in 3 different USB cords before i found the right one. seriously. and this place is not soo messy now ( i mean cuz at this point what is in my apt is either going to move with me. or is going into the trash. i had about 15 plastic totes of crap that was put into storage at my sisters shed outside her house....i mean this is wonderful stuff i can not let go but cant live with in a small X small room in my mothers house. i mean i dont want to scare you. i dont think my apt was every too messy/scary/pack.rat.packed or anything. but why do i keep shit i dont need ie. camera cords from cameras that have not made the cut ( currently in a trash pile somewhere wherever the trash goes) and for my own defense these said cameras that have gone to camera heaven were just tossed recently. so i haven't had time to figure out what goes to new camera and what has passed on.

anyways. really. why do i need to keep shit i dont need? i have tossed soo much stuff lately. but still i got lots i need to get rid of. i am proud of myself tho. ive been really good at cutting the fat soo to speak.

gesh. and all i wanted to do was to post some pictures.

movin...

so im moving to minco. mostly for financially reasons. i want to be able to save some money and to pay some stuff off ( school that i still owe 703840380 dollars for. well not that much. but might as much be how lil im paying at a time :/ ) so financially this is an awesome move. not sure how mentally i will take it. hah i love my family and i miss them. but im moving into a wayy smaller place. and having my mom as my roommate when i have lived alone for the over the past 2 years ( and i f.ing love it!!!) is going to be a big change.

its going to be a great time to purge ( anyone wear size 10-11 shoes?? hah) and get rid of stuff that i dont use. dont like. or just dont need. period.

my mom called me today to tell me my brother in law will be able to move my big stuff this weekend. this weekend??!! gah! i cant complain really hes going to move my heavy stuff and i hate moving lil stuff hah. so when we get done this weekend i will have my computer desk and my bed. i can take my desk apart to move. and my bed isnt going. im downsizing to a twin :(

i have thought this though pretty hard. and it seems like to be the best move for me. i just hope my friends dont forget about me. and will really let me crash on their couch or extra bed if i need too heh :) i know i will need have drinks and time with my girls if i dont want to go too crazyyyy heh :)

soo i must get to packing. gah!

love it!

im gaga for lady gaga!

soo i have fell hard in love with lady gaga. i started looking up her stuff on youtube. watching her videos and wow i just love her. i love her music and her crazy style. and most of all she can really sing! like really! im soo excited for her new cd coming out. i will prob actually buy it. you can get a double cd that has her first cd and this one together for like 15 bucks i will prob get that. soo excited.
hi. im a nerd!

<3

do it!

The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives.

i do feel guilty.

when i grow up i want to be...im not sure. but this is not it. go back to school? maybe. move into a box that doenst charge rent? possbily ( how else would i be able to pay for school??!!?) work 40 hrs a week and go to school? ( great. i dont have a social life now. if i do this will i ever. again?)

and what do i want to be?? heck if i know. i know id like to make close to what i make now ( i could do less if i liked my job more. which heck thats why i think im having a 1/3 life crisis.) i want to be able to plan for things and do them. not hope oh heck i hope i can have this day off. or this night off. or i will know what i work. or will asked nicely to change my schedule. i just want to like my job more i guess.

blahh! i just wish i knew what i need to do. and i would take the steps i needed. i guess im scared.

i wrote an email to my mom telling her my frustrations in my job and the other mgrs i work with. i wish i could be as positve as her.

GM :)
Work, is work. If it were fun, it would be called that. And I know you are supposed to like your job? I like my job but it is still work. There are Buffy Tesios everywhere. People are just people. We need to stay close to the ones who encourage us and distance ourselves from those who do not. I just try to take a positive attitude into it all. That is the only way to be happy, from the inside out. Those two ladies are sad cases. I think people who dis others to make them selves feel better are very unhappy. I want to be happy. That comes from within. We have that happiness, they do not. Anyway, you have good friends and you have your very small family and you have Tess. What more could you ask for? And you are fairly healthy which is very important. Just take care of you and try to be helpful. Some people just hate it when you are nice to them. So I try to be nice and if they are really mean, I try to stay out of their radar. But you know all this. You are mature enough not to waste your time on the really stupid people. I sorta want to just live in a cave but we are supposed to make the world a better place. You would not make it in the cave unless you had wifi :) So, don’t worry, be happy :) And what you do in your spare time is YOUR business. I bet if they confessed how they spend their spare time, we could make fun of them.
Don’t you hate me :) I love you!!! It has been such beautiful weather, I love it.


yes. my mom said dis. and this is one of the only emails that she has sent in the last couple of days that didnt say holler back. really she says that in emails. shes silly and urban hip or something :)


The lyrics to Everybody's Free to Wear Sunscreen, by Mary Schmich:

Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

love.this.video.

exploding dog

i cant remember when i stumbled across explodingdog.com i know it was when i working at IT at OU but thats all i know. i visit this site pretty often. and i love this artist.

im really liking lady gaga. only 534038 years behind everyone else. oh whatever. i dont listen to the radio. ever.

sober and unkissed....

oh. my. god. i love fonts. love them! and dafont! to bad my photoshop cs will expire in like 12 days. i think i can just move a copy from one of my ibooks. i hope.

why dont i sleep like a normal person. possibly because my dreams are soo much better then my real life. waking up is painful and makes sleep not worth it for the way i feel after an amazing dream. worthless. alone. fearful that i will never feel anything that i want to feel. like im missing out. life hurts me sometimes. is there something wrong with me? maybe. am i normal? not in any way im sure.


.....

love this song....

and its excatlly how i have been fealing latley when i go to sleep.


When I look up from my pillow
I dream you are there with me
Though you are far away
I know you'll always be near to me

I go to sleep
And imagine that you're there with me
I go to sleep
And imagine that you're there with me

I look around me
And feel you are ever so close to me
Each tear that flows from my eye
Brings back memories of you to me

I go to sleep
And imagine that you're there with me
I go to sleep
And imagine that you're there with me

I was wrong, I will cry
I will love you till the day I die
You were all, you alone and no one else
You were meant for me

When morning comes again
I have the loneliness you left me
Each day drags by
Until finally my time descends on me

I go to sleep
And imagine that you're there with me
I go to sleep
And imagine that you're there with me

lazy is as lazy does. or um something.

just got done watching serenity for the 750384038 times. its one of my favorite movies for many reasons. joss whedon. scifi that isnt too over my head. comedy. fighting. all stuff lindy loves.

well my weekend off has basically been me being super lazy. i have played alot of katamari damacy and spent wayyyy tooo much time on facebook. and played with miss tess. at this moment she is sitting on my chest wondering why i love this silly light.making.noise.making box soo much :) she doesnt like technology much. she would rather lick my face and get her belly scratched. oh the life of a doggie. must be nice. hah.

i changed the look of this thing. not sure if i like the underwear.wearing.girl soo much but it will do for now. id like to make my own header and have looked into that a lil bit. but i lost interest. like soo many other things i plan on doing but never do. like this fancy mac has the whole adobe creative suite and will expire in 30 days and i have only opened some stuff up to go ohhhh fancy. then i go do something else. i wish i had the drive i need to be more creative. i waste my brain wayyy too much :(

back to work in the morning. i work a crappy 12 to 8 tom. and im sure i will have to stay till 9 or 10 to get my full 40 hrs this week since my boss is horrible at making schedules. ( scheduling us till 11 and we always leave before 10.30. meaning i useally have 2 to 4 hrs i have to make up somewhere. and she doesnt like us to come in early. at all. stupid. stupid. stupid. ) and then 3 to 11 the rest of the week. and i work mornings this weekend. soo no halloween drinking for mes :( oh well i really cant afford it. i either need to make more money or have to pay for less stuff. not sure how to do either. hah.

im dumb...

dear blog

i find all this..... sign in with your google...... crap annoying. first off i dont have an google email. or any of the lil things you want me to sign on with. i have a blogger. yet everyone seems to use this thing to follow people.

i confused.

and not that anyone reads this silly stuff anyways. but i do read other peoples. but following these said people would be alot easier then having 573048308408 blogger bookmarks everywhere.

please help a girl out.

love

i.spend.alot.of.time.on.the.interweb.but.apparently.still.get.confused.by.simple.to.other.people.things.girl. or lindy for short.


ps if you are friends with the new facebook live feed thing i get why you are confusing. and i may never figure out :( and i dont like either of you verrry much!!!! :p

im in love....

dear vaseline sheer infusion lotion. i am sooo in love with you i might never use another lotion again. how do you do it? you make my hands feel soft ( even tho i wash them 573048308480 times a day at work) and you stay on after i wash my hands. amazing. if you had a lil head i would kiss the top of it. but you dont since you are just a bottle of lotion. but dont feel bad about that cuz you are the most amazing lotion i know. love lindy.c.

trying to blog....

slept less then 4 hours tuesday nite.

went to be around 3am last night.

woke up around 8.45 this morning.

laid in bed and tried to fall asleep while i petted tess till 9.20. finally got out of bed. and now here i am. wanting oatmeal and some oj. and i have neither of those things. soo im settling for icewater and air? hah. i do have some mt.dew that i can drink. but since i drank enough caffeine yesterday to power a small ocean liner for more then a day i think i will lay off the OTC.crack for today.

im soon making my weekly/bi.weekly trek to minco to wash clothes and marvel at how much my nephew has grown in since i last saw him. im also going to be getting my "new" mac from my mom. hopefully is not prehistoric and runs okay. and if it has a dvd player ( if it doesnt im going to keep the pc she found me) i will be able to run 10.5 and since both my ibooks are running 10.not.high.enough.to.even.download.new.itunes.songs.cuz.gahhh.your.os.is.old. this will be an AWESOME upgrade. :)

reese called me randomly last nite and stopped by to give me the cutest planner ever that she found for me at barnes and noble. and we then went to target. i love her so much she can stand me when im crashing off of my caffeine high and tweeking on my mucinex d high. hah. i will miss our little random outtings if i move to minco. but i know i will be in norman alot. i love it here. i just want to be closer to my family.

well off to clean dirty socks and moving small electronics i go!

<3

since my paid account fof my livejournal is up im wondering if this will still go to my lj......

i promise i will do a real post....

maybe. hah!

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ummm working now????

doot doot doot

trying to see if my blog goes to my lj! please work!! :)